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Jenny Winklevoss ([personal profile] notverywise) wrote2011-12-22 04:31 pm
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with grace in your heart and flowers in your hair

Logically speaking, Jenny knows she probably shouldn't be so nervous. The thing about it having taken so long — though it isn't as if she knew before yesterday that there was something to take long at all, regardless of how much sense it makes now that both of them have admitted to harboring feelings — is that she knows Cameron, she's comfortable with him, more so than probably any other person on the island. Before, to have gone out together would have been something perfectly normal, during which she'd have kept any thoughts of something more to herself. Now, everything's changed, even if nothing has at the same time. It's absolutely thrilling, leaving her as anxious as she is exhilarated, and certain that this is the happiest she's been since showing up here.

Because the thing is, she hasn't done this before, not really. When she went out with David, nothing ever officially changed; it was just one thing one day, and gradually, other things began to happen, too. She thinks now that that might have been the point from the beginning. So often there were others there, too, Helen and Danny, and even that could be part of the appeal. The more she thinks about it, the more she wonders if it was David she wanted or the life he could give her, and she's fairly certain it was the latter. With Cameron, it's entirely different. She's known him longer and she knows him well, and while it helps that he's so many of the things she'd have gravitated towards back home, it isn't just about that, especially not when so much of that would be irrelevant here. It's just him, and she's wanted him for so long now that this has so much more weight to it.

However much time he waited, she's glad it's now, anyway. Not all of the island's changes are things she's taken to well, the whole idea of moving backwards entirely at odds with the way she approaches most things, but it's certainly convenient for this, giving them actual things to do for a proper date (and just the thought leaves her biting her lip, trying to hold back a smile, though there's no reason for it yet). Now there's nothing but to wait a little longer, which shouldn't be difficult when so many months have passed. Pacing her flat and waiting for him to get here, though, feels a lot more difficult than that ever did.
makeafairfight: (everything looks perfect from far away.)

[personal profile] makeafairfight 2011-12-22 10:26 pm (UTC)(link)
Cameron's dated other girls and taken more still out for evenings that didn't really amount to anything, but it's been a long time since he's felt quite like this, if he ever has. The anticipation of getting to her door is stronger than he would have expected, though he's thought about this over and over since long before yesterday or even before Ty encouraged him to take the leap. It's just, it's Jenny. There have been other girls, special in their own ways, but none of them were her. None of them were ever really his friend beforehand, none were like her, so warm and supportive and thoughtful and clever. He's not sure if that should change how he handles things or not, or if it gives him an advantage in that he knows her better than he knew any of the rest.

She knows him, after all, better than just about anyone here other than his brother, and so the need to impress her should be diminished. He must have already done so somehow for her to return his feelings. Instead, it feels that much more important that tonight be perfect, precisely what she deserves, not just any old night with the two of them hanging out. He shows up at her door promptly at the appointed hour, neatly dressed, a small bouquet of violets in hand — not much, but fresh flowers in the winter aren't exactly easy to come by, one of the few things the island has over this. Clearing his throat and carefully readjusting his coat, he knocks at the door and waits.
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[personal profile] makeafairfight 2011-12-24 06:20 pm (UTC)(link)
"Ah, they are, yes," Cameron says, holding them out to her. In the half a minute or so he's been at her door, he nearly forgot he was even holding them, and it comes as something of a surprise, his attention more thoroughly directed toward her. With a hand on the door frame, he leans in to kiss her cheek (it would be so easy to move a little lower, a little more centered, kiss her on the lips like he's wanted for months, but he's waited this long and he intends to do this right). "You look lovely."

She always does, but that's beside the point. Now he gets to tell her the way he means it, has meant it for ages. Now he knows she's dressed up for him, and the idea is staggering.
Edited 2011-12-24 18:20 (UTC)
makeafairfight: (if everything we've said is true.)

[personal profile] makeafairfight 2011-12-26 09:47 pm (UTC)(link)
Dusting his feet outside the door, Cameron follows her inside, hands sliding into his pockets. "Good idea," he says. "They're not much, I know, but... not a lot of options in the middle of winter, I'm afraid." If the island were its usual self, he might at least have been able to bring her orchids or even roses, and he knows there's a woman who specializes in bouquets, but it all might mean a little less, too. He has to work just a little harder to do right by Jenny, but, he thinks, maybe that's the way it should be.
makeafairfight: (one minute I held the key.)

[personal profile] makeafairfight 2011-12-27 10:27 pm (UTC)(link)
That they seem to have gone over well is a relief for Cameron. It isn't like he really thought she'd react any differently, but it still helps to see, if only because it feels like they've been waiting so long for this, even before they let themselves admit it. It hasn't been long at all since he asked her out, hardly more than twenty-four hours, and it's remarkable how much it feels like things have changed, how he finds himself ever so slightly nervous though it's not the first time they've gone to dinner together. The context is different, he's laid his regard for her on the table, and that changes things, except that he hopes it doesn't, not by much.

"It is," he says, nodding. "Good to see you, too, I mean. In this way. It's always good to see you, but... I'm glad I'm here for this tonight."
makeafairfight: (or it could be if we would try.)

[personal profile] makeafairfight 2011-12-29 08:42 pm (UTC)(link)
"Absolutely," Cameron says, offering his arm to her as he heads for the door. "I — do you have ice skates? I brought some, but I wasn't... actually sure of your size, so I don't know — if you have a pair already, it would be, uh, advantageous." He's got a carriage waiting downstairs — he's still nervous it'll take off without them despite repeated assurances from the driver — but, as rude as it might be, he can't help thinking it isn't as if these people have anywhere else to be. Keeping the carriage waiting another minute or so isn't a problem, and he'd rather be sure she has skates that fit before he takes her out on the ice.
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[personal profile] makeafairfight 2011-12-31 11:45 pm (UTC)(link)
"Oh, well, good, then we'll break them in," Cameron says, hands clasped together as he waits for her to get them. That's a relief at least. They would have figured something out, but he would have hated to have that part of the date cut short by the realization the ones he'd picked out were too small or too large. It isn't like he's spent time studying her feet or has some amazing grasp on guessing women's shoe sizes, and he doesn't want her ending up with a twisted ankle or worse because of it.
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[personal profile] makeafairfight 2012-01-02 02:07 pm (UTC)(link)
"Good," Cameron says again, reaching reflexively over to straighten out her collar, drawing a stray lock of hair out from under it. "Are you gonna be warm enough?" He imagines she's about as accustomed to the winter cold as he is, and the last week hasn't seen any further snow, but it's worth checking. He doesn't want to take her out to have their night cut short or their fun dampened because she's freezing (although at least he still has dinner planned for after and they can warm up indoors, then). Unable to help his fond expression, he steps back to get the door for her.
makeafairfight: (if everything we've said is true.)

[personal profile] makeafairfight 2012-01-07 01:20 am (UTC)(link)
"Let's," agrees Cameron, offering her his arm as they start for the stairs. At least the weather seems to be holding, the skies still clear and no sign of snow, which he's hoping will last; he wants tonight to be perfect to the last detail, and that's one of the few over which he has no control at all. He's half-convinced it'll start snowing just to spite him. What he can keep an eye on, though, he means to. She deserves the best, and though the island falls short of his own standards for that, he'll come as close to it as he can for her. "Do you want me to take those for you?"
makeafairfight: (we'll keep running with the masses.)

[personal profile] makeafairfight 2012-01-09 02:47 pm (UTC)(link)
"It's been a long while for me, too," Cameron says, nodding as he takes the bag from her. She doesn't really need the help, he knows, more than capable of carrying a pair of skates, but it's about the gentlemanly thing to do, not whether or not she needs it done. If he can keep her smiling, tonight, he'll call the evening a success. That he also gets to put the river to use whether or not the island wants to cooperate is just a bonus. "Usually if the water's frozen over enough for that, I'm home for the holidays and there's too much else to do. Family gatherings, that kind of thing."
makeafairfight: (if everything we've said is true.)

[personal profile] makeafairfight 2012-01-14 11:18 pm (UTC)(link)
"Ah, yes," Cameron says, glancing at her more briefly than he'd like. It's the one drawback of talking while walking, not getting to really look her way. "We had a few of those, too. But no, it was... quiet, but nice." It's not like that here. Or rather, it's quiet and it's nice enough, but he's lucky just to have his brother here. He's lucky he has her, too, but even that doesn't change the fact that it just isn't the same.
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[personal profile] makeafairfight 2012-01-16 10:42 pm (UTC)(link)
"We do," Cameron agrees, smiling a little broader as he steps ahead to push the door open for her. A blast of cold air swirls in with that motion, but there's nothing to be done for that, and he knows they'll acclimate soon enough. "Not that it would be a total mess if Ty and I planned it alone, but I think it might not come together quite as we'd like." Besides, he likes the idea of having her help, working together with her on this.
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[personal profile] makeafairfight 2012-01-21 04:36 pm (UTC)(link)
"Here, get in," Cameron urges, biting back a fond laugh as he hurries to get the carriage door for her. There are heavy blankets in most of the cabs, he's found, an old custom he'd read about in literature classes required for graduation but had forgotten about until they got here. He's grateful for them now. As little as he minds the cold, he doesn't want her suffering for it while she acclimates. "And I knew I could count on you. Tonight is not about next week's party, though, tonight is for us."
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[personal profile] makeafairfight 2012-01-22 08:56 pm (UTC)(link)
"Very." Setting her skates down on the floorboards beside the pairs he's brought along, Cameron climbs in to the carriage. Helping to draw the blankets up over their legs as the carriage rattles forward, he leans slightly toward her. "How's that?" he asks. "Will you be warm enough?" Once they're on the ice, he's sure, and active, they'll be more than fine, and there's hot cider and things like that to drink at the fair, but until then, hopefully this will be enough.

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